so i love not being in school right now. :) only like another week and ill be back but its nice to have such a good long break !!

today i had about a 6 hour conversation on my back porch with a REALLY good guy friend and i feel refreshed.  this nigga is onea my best friends and im so glad to have him in my life. fer reaaaaaal

in other news.. i have NOTHING to do tomorrow.. again. and i couldnt be happier right now !! knowing im going to be dealing with some really hard classes in a couple of weeks makes me NOT CARE that im DOING NOTHING but sittin on my ASS and watching tv. with the occasional workouts and laundry. lol life is amazing

anyone wanna buy me a plane ticket to cali. neverland ranch is where i wanna be this week to witness MJs funeral. i would be there in the heartbeat if i had the money man. there should be a chair there waiting for me that has a sign reading "#1 fan's CHAIR, biiiitch." 

haha. 

oh and joshua bought me a "booger" ring, i think i like it more than my diamond one. 

k BYE. time for some cuddle time. <3

take a minute to ponder this..

one more.. food for thought : 

would you rather have 17 testicles or one the size of a coconut ?

HI BABIES

oyster bay sauvignon blanc is my new fav wine :) try it out.. light and fruity.

soo..

was laying on the beach today and of course a HA-UGE wave came and wiped my ass out. i wish someone hada video camera for thaaat cause i looked like a beached whale.. it was funny til i found my ipod ina puddle of salt water and sand 3 minutes later. 1st its the camera, and then its the ipod. shit is not going too great in the gadgets department.. next itll be the blackberry or the mac and then ill be reaaaaaalllly pissed.

going to bed. but i have a hard time NOT watching tv. MTV had MJs videos on ALL day long.. and now its either cnn or fox news.. i cant stop watching. its still unreal man. crazy ALL of his shows overseas sold out in MINUTES, and he hasnt had an album out since 2001. and STILL his shows are sold out in minutes.. amazing. too bad hell never get to perform. :(

k GOODnight, TRY THAT WINE ! 

michael jackson.

still on vacation, i get a text message that changed my mood entirely. michael jackson died today. this may not be a shock to most people, but it was to me. shit made me cry my eyes out.

ive loved michael jackson since 1993. when free willy came out and he was on the soundtrack with 'will you be there'. 

people have always called me a freak or weird for liking him so much, but i never gave a flying FUCK. he is hands down the BEST entertainer EVER. thriller the NUMBER ONE SELLING ALBUM OF ALL TIME. umm inventor of the moonwalk. best dancer the industry has ever seen.. usher and chris brown wouldnt have ANYthing if it wasnt for MJ.

i can remember i made my dad by the damn DANGEROUS videos. all of them, that shit came out in like 91. i would dance in my livingroom to him, trying to do his moves (never worked out) but totally tried.

THIS SHOULD HAVE NEVER HAPPENED. what a bizarre life he lived. what a BAD person everyone made him out to be. how could he go from making the most popular video of all time (thriller) to being accused of child molestation. niggas want his money. yeah so what he liked kids. maybe because he NEVER GOT A FUCKING CHILDHOOD. ya ever think about that. he grew up in the spot light. and we allllll know what happens to child stars. most of em end up in rehab or a total loser working at burger king. michael actually MADE SOMETHING OF HIMSELF.

okay so i maaaay be a little too much over the top with this. but it jus upsets me to see people so judgmental about his death. so he'll rot in hell.. will he ? maybe evan chandler, the father of the the boy he supposedly molested, will rot in hell for taking his money.  did anyone take notes on that trial ? was there any physical evidence. or was there a scared little boy telling the media he was molested because his daddys a DICK and wanted money.  oh he wasnt caught telling his friend on the phone "If I go through with this, I win big-time. There's no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever...Michael's career will be over". 

hmmmm.... sounds legit to me !

bigger than elvis. bigger than the beatles. bigger than elton john, bigger than tina turner, billy joel, frank sinatra, bigger than britney spears, than friggen lil wayne will EVER BE. bigger than the rolling stones, than aerosmith and kurt cobain. bigger than jay z, eminem. bigger than pince. bigger than quincy jones, than bob marely, nsync, usher, and madonna.

OFTEN imitated. never fucking duplicated.

goodnight michael. 

its amazing to me how i can still get calls (on vacation mind you) about something that happened 5 months ago and never needs to be brought up again. yet, it continues to be. 

it

never

happened.

now.. on a lighter note. I GOT BURNT TODAY ! the sun was out for most of the day and i spent the day on the beach. dropped joshua off at the ferry, and had dinner with my family at a little outside restaurant in bethany. ill be without douchie for 4 days :) longest in a long time !!

dinner was great. my heart and head are feeling great. and NOTHING can bother me. nothing. :)

love life and the people who are STILL in it

so im on vaca :) and ive decided people do not understand me. like at all. its okay cause i really dont care. you can be caught up in your day to day life full of gossip and shopping. just to let you know... there is more to life than that. there is ART, LOVE.. and coronas. haha got ya there. no but really.. being in vacation and NOT around buena people made me realize how much there is out there and how much more there is to life. 

get real. open your eyes.

big day

today was our marketing presentation for our client (smith memorial playground and playhouse) and our group did FABULOUS !! ive heard this class was the hardest one you'll ever have at AI, and ITS OVER !!! holy crap. so we went to the bar afterwards to celebrate :) how i love iced cold coronas in a dingy hole in the wall bar in center city after a stressful class. 

now i only have ONE more class for the quarter (friday morning) and then ill have 3 freakin weeks OFF !! 8 more classes and ill have that damn diploma in my hands. im soo exciteddd

okay so im off to bed because its after 10. josh isnt laying next to me tonight, so that means im gonna have a hard time falling asleep :( siiiike i have THE WHOLE bed to myself, how great is that. awesome isnt even the right word

i think you should download sugarlands' "love" song, because its my new fav right now. k BYE